About the book

Do you feel rejected or abandoned by God? Do you sometimes wonder if God hates you? Are you tempted to give up and walk away?

You’re not alone! 

In "Holy Doubt," author and former missionary, Erica Barthalow weaves a story of faith unraveled and stitched back together by an honest journey through doubt and questions about God. Questions like:

-Is God Good?

-Can He Be Trusted?

-Does God Cause Bad Things to Happen to Us?

Set against the exotic and colorful backdrop of India, you’ll be transported into Erica’s redemptive story and regain hope for your fractured relationship with God. With empathy and compassion born from personal experience, Erica invites you to examine your deepest questions about God from a fresh perspective. If your faith in God has been broken or shattered, and you long for healing and hope, Holy Doubt is the book for you. Click the button below to buy it now on Amazon. 


What People Are Saying

"You are captured in the very first chapter. Honestly, if you have ever struggled with faith, wondered where God was during your darkest times, or questioned the trustworthiness and goodness of God during difficult times, you need to read this book. So raw, transparent, and real, you will be encouraged by Erica's story. --Marissa

"I think more often than we'd like to admit either we or someone we know and love have struggled with thoughts of desperation and hopelessness when it comes to our relationship with God. We've heard all the church-y platitudes and pasted on the smiles all the while wondering what anyone would think if they really knew the truth or what they'd do if they did!

Erica speaks to the reader using her own story in a raw and honest way, answering questions we've all possibly had, and assuring the reader that God has a plan even when we feel forgotten and alone.

Mental health has been shoved aside within our society and unfortunately within the church, this book provides relatable evidence that God cares, our community around us cares, and that we are worth more than we can ever comprehend! A timely and necessary read, you won't be disappointed." --Elizabeth

"What happens when you get everything you thought you ever wanted and it's nothing like you thought it would be? In this honest, heart wrenching, and relatable book we join the author on a journey to India to serve as a missionary, through anxiety and depression and into an intimate knowledge of who Jesus really is to her. She asks the big questions about God that we thought we couldn't ask in Sunday School. Erica writes with humor and a wisdom that comes from healing. She doesn't sugarcoat the details and you come away feeling as if you've had a deep conversation with a good friend. If you are dealing with depression or anxiety or you are feeling disconnected from God I urge you to read this book. You are not alone." --Renee

"I started reading this book the first night I purchased it. I didn't want to put it down." --Kathy

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Interviews

Click here to listen to Erica's interview on the "Theology in Progress" podcast

Click here to listen to Erica talk about Holy Doubt and future writing plans on KWAY 99.3 Waverly.

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